Moving On, Letting Go

Lately, I've been encountering emotional distress due to my resignation which will take effect on September 15, 2008. I will leave the company I first loved and cherished. I'm leaving the people who've become dear to me, be it colleagues or bosses. I admit I have been very stubborn these past few days, ever since, I was telling myself that if one day I resign, there’s no holding back, it should be something that I carefully thought of, and prayed for with His guidance.

I knew it won’t be easy when the thought crossed my mind, but it’s also uneasy to conceal, stay right where I am and do nothing. The reason why I didn’t let my bosses know my concerns early on, is because I love doing it for my teammates, I don’t want to turn out to be the ultimate complainer, it’s not in the nature of dB to just leave the work behind and go on partying yourself, if you party, party together. Either ways, they’re going to do the same, and one might need to do each other’s favor someday.
 

The more I get closer to my last days in the company (dB), the more it becomes depressing, gradually bring together pieces of reality. I know I can never find such wonderful buddies in other company like my teammates or even my former teammates, people in dB are really nice, unless otherwise not known to me, your faithful companion during hard times, I really don't have anything to say against anyone in dB. Every time they ask me why I will leave the company, I’d just say I love the company, I love the people in it, wait, that has just sounded too ironic. Ok, first, maybe because of work which slowly becomes more and more demanding and too overwhelming which I know is inevitable in most IT companies, secondly, of course financial and health reasons follow. Well, everyone has a “goal” in life and I hope they do comprehend. The goals to achieve their dreams, put up their own business, own a house-and-lot, drive a luxurious car, having food on the table, and the rest, savings for the rainy days.
 

Part of moving on, one must learn to live, and let live.